Fucking Cancer

Cancer has gotten the best of me temporarily. I started chemo (Taxotere and Cytoxan) in May 2009 again. Since I went through this all in 2003 you think it would be "same old same old" but my body has taken a beating and I am older and this time it's in my lung.
I haven't been able to make my brain, hands, emotions join together and be able to blog about this until right this moment....just felt right this morning.
I have been soooooo bummed about going bald again. It took me from 2004-2008 to grow all my hair back out and now I'm bald again. I realize hair is supposed to be no big deal BUT you have to understand MY HAIR was "MY DEAL". I do not have a beautiful face, lovely figure, don't wear makeup, or know how to put an outfit together BUT I had THE HAIR. Thick, wavy, long and it's what I hid behind. It's where I received all my compliments. It's pathetic to have used my hair as a prop but if you are honest we all have "OUR Thing" that makes us feel important. Perhaps it's a job title, an artistic talent, etc. If you lost that how would you feel?
But I have decided no more hats until the cold weather forces me. I have been going out in public with my bald dome and trying to forget about it.
I had my 6th chemo treatment yesterday and right now I feel lousy but this blogging is somewhat distracting.
If you have breast cancer or any other cancer and wanna leave a comment I would love it. Even if you don't have cancer I'd love to hear from you.

Leslie Berven's Dad Made me Laugh

Weird title I realize but he's been on my mind since he passed away 2 Christmas' ago. The man was generous, surly, hilarious, loving, frustrating, etc. But I am so glad I was able to know him in my lifetime. Talk to you soon big guy....

AWESOME Cancer Bracelet

This morning I went to a bead shop with my friend Andi. With the help of the lady at DreamWeavers this bracelet was made for me!! Andi has a bracelet that has all the beads for every kind of cancer color. My bracelet has the pink for breast cancer, teal for ovarian, cervical, and uterine cancer, white for lung cancer, and purple for pancreatic cancer. We only knew 2 colors because Andi has ovarian cancer and I had breast cancer, the others on my bracelet are because I liked the colors. I never do crafts and I was intimidated by beads but I learned alot and it was fun!

Just This n That

I haven't written on my blog for A LONG time! I guess I had nothing to say, huh? This picture has nothing to do with my blog but I thought it was pretty! It's our dogwood tree about a month ago with snow.
This past week I have been after school grandson sitting for my 2 grandsons, Andrew 10 and Austin 8. The make me laugh alot when their not making me crazy (er). Yesterday we went to the park and they were playing a modified version of kickball that should've been called "We change the rules every 5 seconds". Anyhow, at one point Austin declared they were having a "Mexican standoff" and because there's alot of Mexican Americans at the park all around us I corrected him and said, "Austin that's really not a nice thing to say." So about 10 minutes later when they were in the same jam Austin says, "We're having a White Man Stand-Off". I seriously laughed outloud!!!

I got tagged...

THE RULES:1. Post these rules before you give you the facts.2. List eight (8) random facts about yourself.3. At the end of your post, choose (tag) someone and list their name (linking to their page).4. Leave them a comment on their blog letting them know they’ve been tagged
1. I'm a scorpio but I hate spiders.
2.I wore braces when I was a kid.
3. I married my high school boyfriend.
4.I'm fearful of almost everything.
5.I love books and love to read.
6.I have 2 brothers and one sister.
7.My mom died 25 years ago and I still miss her.
8.I LOVE to laugh.
I am tagging American Nympho in England but I don't know how to link to her page like the directions tell me.

Meth Heads Can Kiss My Ass

This is going to be a rant so if you're not in the mood click on another blog. We live in the meth manufacturing mecca of the universe and one of the ingredients in that recipe is suphedrine (it has another spelling but I can't remember it right now). Now for normal people this ingredient is used to dry up your boogers but because it is also used for nefarious purposes I have to practically get strip searched to purchase 24 tablets. It's another case of MY RIGHTS being taken away because of a minority. GRRRRRR

Holly Golightly Lives On...

I got this hat years ago at either a charity shop or a yardsale. Can't remember. I just knew when I caught sight of it that it was going to be my "Audrey/Holly" hat. It has been hanging on the wall in the guest bedroom forever and everytime I would go in there I could swear I heard Audrey Hepburn's voice ever so faintly. hmmm The color of this type is an ode to Tiffany's. Guess what? I actually wandered through a Tiffany's recently. Didn't purchase anything but had fun for free!!!

As Promised

Well here's a few piccies of the finished product. I think I shall tease you by revealing the rest later. I'm so glad it's finished. New subject: My daughter and her hubbie are here from the UK because our son is getting married on Saturday. It's lovely having voices in the house again that are not eminating from my own head!!